My Heart

Louisiana
California
Ohio
Florida
Tennessee
Missouri

Ages 8, 9, 10, 11

Devonte, Jeremiah, Tyrell

I've been looking at kids online until my eyes are crossed. There are SO.MANY.  There's a website that allows you to specify exactly what you're looking for- down to level of emotional, physical, behavioral disabilities. And then it spits out this list of children. Our requests are fairly specific and narrow... and the list of available children across the U.S. is huge. It tells me just enough information to decide if I'm interested in more. So far, the "more" has led us to not pursue those children any further.

And that breaks my heart. I hate saying no- even though I know it's for the best. There are some behaviors that we just aren't equipped to deal with.

There's a bed upstairs that's ready for a little boy. I want it filled- even though I know in my heart that God's timing is perfect. I'm realizing lately that I'm very sensitive the the word "adoption" or the adoption stories of others. Why them and not us? (yes, I can be a bit of a baby whiner.)

Lord, please keep my son safe. I don't know who he is or where he lives... but you do. Hold him close until I can, please.