Breathe.

The current goal is to breathe.


We just received an email from the caseworker. It took my breath away. Committee will either be scheduled for March 17th or 24th (both great dates. Not as soon as I had hoped, but still this month. That's exciting!)


But from there, we hit a little problem. K's grandmother (whom he is very attached to) is fighting the adoption. She wants custody of K. I can't blame her. But that's hard news to process.

On March 31st, there will be a court hearing in which K's grandmother will be attempting to have K removed from the custody of DHS. If the State "wins" this case, the adoption placement can happen as of April 1st. I'm not even sure how to pray on this one. How do I hope that his grandma doesn't get him? That seems so wrong.

I'm still praying that we'll have him for Spring Break. Maybe that doesn't mean we'll have him in our home yet. I don't know.  I trust God's plan and it hit me very clearly this morning that if it's decided that K is not coming into our home, God has his hand in that 100%. Maybe it is His way of protecting our family. I have to trust that.


But, oh my goodness, I want this child in our family. 

Asking Big Things

I have made the heart decision to pray more specifically for the adoption process and for K. For my friends who talk to God, I would be honored if you would also lift up these requests.

*That committee would be on or before March 14th, 2014. (This seems highly unlikely, but my God has done bigger things.)

*That K's heart would be prepared for a transition- whether to us or another family. (But preferably to us.)

*That a little boy named K would be in our home by the first day of Spring Break.

Progress!

Happy

Dance!!

It's a small step, but we'll take any forward step at this point.

A request for a committee has FINALLY been made. 

Our caseworker expects a date to be set for sometime in March.

(Committee is where up to 3 families are presented and a decision

is made as to which family would be the best fit for the child.

It's approximately a four hour process.)

Yay!!

(P.S. A boy that I haven't yet met has a spot waiting for him in

1st grade. That was a weird registration form to fill out.)

It's All For a Reason

I don't cry easily. (well... Other than surprise homecoming and pregnancy announcement videos on YouTube.) Crying gives me a headache. And truthfully, crying makes me feel weak.

I made it this far into the adoption process with some tears... But no full sob fests

Until now.

I just sat in the car and did the loud, ugly face cry. It wasn't a pretty moment. I'm thankful no one witnessed it.

This waiting is so hard on my heart. I KNOW there's a reason. I totally get that this is all part of the plan. But this human heart that God gave me is so sad. What set it off today? Today was the first day of registration at the school I hope to send K to (if he doesn't have needs that would require something more). After registration this morning, there's 1 spot left in first grade. One.

I wanted to be registering my little guy today.

I'm so sad. Still hopeful, but sad.

The P Word

The P Word.

That thing that everyone tells you not to pray for.

The last few months has been a huge test of it.

Patience. I knew an adoption could take a while, but I had no idea how incredibly slowly the wheels would turn. I had this idea in my head that since we weren't seeking a newborn, things would move faster. Silly, silly me.

There's still hope. Things still look positive. But there's currently no end in sight. No dates have been set and no one knows when that may happen.  And in the meantime, there's a 6 year old boy in NE Salem who is waiting for his forever family.

Steve and I pray for K every night. We pray that he is protected and loved. We pray that he'll end up in the family that God has already chosen. We pray that this process will somehow go smoother. It brings tears to my eyes every time. Hearing Steve say his name hits my heart in a weird way.

At dinner tonight, Gabe prayed for K, too. This wait is hard on all of us. Yet we all know that God's timing is absolutely perfect.

Signed:
Hopeful in South Salem