I don't cry easily. (well... Other than surprise homecoming and pregnancy announcement videos on YouTube.) Crying gives me a headache. And truthfully, crying makes me feel weak.
I made it this far into the adoption process with some tears... But no full sob fests
Until now.
I just sat in the car and did the loud, ugly face cry. It wasn't a pretty moment. I'm thankful no one witnessed it.
This waiting is so hard on my heart. I KNOW there's a reason. I totally get that this is all part of the plan. But this human heart that God gave me is so sad. What set it off today? Today was the first day of registration at the school I hope to send K to (if he doesn't have needs that would require something more). After registration this morning, there's 1 spot left in first grade. One.
I wanted to be registering my little guy today.
I'm so sad. Still hopeful, but sad.
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