Nesting?

I think I finally get it. I think I understand this whole cleaning at the end of a pregnancy thing!

It's possible that you reach the end of 9 months of waiting and you're at a point of zero control of what's happening to your body. You have to find something that you can control. Scrubbing, organizing, rearranging...it's something you can actually make a decision about.

That said: I'm cleaning and rearranging constantly lately. I even cleaned out the kitchen 'junk drawer.' People. I organized the masses of hot sauce and ketchup packets. There may be a problem.

This adoption thing is out of my control. Completely out of my control. I don't know if we'll get a call. I don't know when we'll get a call. I don't know what news that call will bring.

<insert scream here>

The honest truth?  I'm not sure my heart can go through this roller coaster again.

It's hard.

Yet I know it could be so incredibly worth it in the end.

Please pray for our little family and for 'K'. Even if he doesn't come into our family, I'm begging God to keep his heart safe.